I wear coats all the time cuz my arm is all chopped up. "I don't do it for attention, it's a habit when I get upset or stressed or scared or sad, mad, angry, anything. I haven't had any more urges since I came to that conclusion." I have now been cut-free for a few months. I finally came to the point in my life, with my counselor's help and my best friends' support, where I got tired of hurting myself and I was seriously ready to stop cutting (for good, this time). I have been seeing a counselor for around 2 years or more. I eventually became addicted and couldn't stop. "I cut for about 2 1/2 years, off and on. When I feel like I have to cut, I take a cold shower. I haven't made it to 2 months yet, but I am trying so hard. I would go 3 weeks and cut, I would go 1 month and 3 days and cut, I would go for 1 month and 28 days and cut. I have been trying to stop for 8 months now. When I first started, I thought, 'This is amazing, I feel so much better, but I won't do this ever again.' Then the next week, 'Well, one more time won't hurt.' I continued to tell myself, 'I can stop when I want,' so I continued to cut. But he didn't tell me that after you relieve your pain for 5 minutes, you look down at your arm, and you feel so ashamed. "I started because my boyfriend was cutting. Your friends will always love you, like mine did, and my crush loves me more now, lol." I told my mom and she said she had done it once, and it's not good. It didn't help me, it made more problems, and I really hated myself. "I used to cut myself, and I realized that I did it because I felt bad for my friend, who cut herself, and I really did it for curiosity. But the problems were still there and nothing can cover up the problems.unless you talk about them, that's really the only way you can overcome the problems." "I'm going to try and stop cutting myself because I know that it's not a good thing to do but it did relieve stress for a little bit. That's my healthy way of expressing myself." Every once in a while I write bad things and how I feel. I started a fresh diary and tried writing more positive things. "My old diary was filled with sad stories and all about hating people. Now it's in the wood forever and it helps me a lot even though I don't wanna think about the bad times." I liked to count my cuts to think about how many times I got hurt. I can dig as hard as I can without bleeding and scarring. Now I scrape scissors or anything sharp into a side of my desk. Yeah, I did snap it too hard and ended up hurting myself. "I have found that dropping red food color into a tall (clear) glass of water can be a release (as long as the urge isn't too strong)." So please, everyone who knows someone who cuts themselves, call them, visit them at home, or just send a text message. But sometimes, they just need you even more. And you have no power left to do things with your friends, sometimes it's hard to even call them, and as a friend you can get the idea that your 'cutter friend' doesn't like you anymore. When you're a cutter you are often feeling very down, or even depressed. "I cut myself, and I know how important it is with friends who stick with you. Sometimes I want to cut again, but my best friend does it really bad and I think how much I don't want her to." I haven't cut since my 13th birthday, and I feel so much better. A lot of my friends used to cut (some still do), and write poems, so sharing with them helped a lot. When I wanted to cut, I would get out my notebook instead. "What really helped me quit was writing poetry. If possible, put away the knife or razor blade or whatever it is, and talk to the person. Ask yourself, 'Would I cut him/her?' You'll find yourself losing the urge to cut when you realize how fortunate you are to have this person who loves you. Imagine it belongs to your best friend, girlfriend/boyfriend, brother, sister, father, mother, grandmother, or other meaningful person in your life. "This stopped my cutting completely: When you want to cut, whether your wrist or thigh, stare at it intensely. That's why you don't see any personal details here - just experiences and a desire to help from the people who've been there. When readers email us, it's through a secure system that doesn't record names or other personal information. So the comments below may help some people but not others. Of course, the reasons why people cut are very different. We decided to put some of these suggestions and comments on our site. Others share their ideas on how they stopped. Sometimes people tell us about the feelings and emotions that surround cutting. We get lots of emails, especially about our articles on cutting.
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